So last Thursday night, I arrived at my special hot springs spa and hotel to do my 24 hour meditation. Here is how it went:
When I got there at 5:30 pm., I only had 30 minutes to race into my room and get my self decompressed from the long drive. I got my stuff together and began repeating the command promptly at 6 pm. I chanted several rounds of 108 repetitions, and then went and sat in the hot springs.
The pool was filled with talking people. I vowed to stay to myself and avoid conversation. I repeated the command, as loudly as I could internally, even though everyone was pretty talkative. I found this to be difficult. The practice is to speak the affirmation, command, or prayer of your choice in a group of people, silently, but loud on an internal level. This feeds the collective unconscious mind of the group with positive energy and thoughts. It was really hard for me because the conversation distracted me.
I got out and removed myself from the crowd. I sat at least 15 feet away, and repeated another round of 108, but in a whisper. Nobody knew what I was doing. I was the guy who wouldn’t talk.
Then I went back to my room. My plan was to stay up as long as possible. I repeated, and repeated, and repeated the command from my chest. I tried to go outside, but it was too cold and I cam back in.
I think I made it to around 1:30 am, and got really tired. I put my headphones in, played a file of the command being repeated over and over again, and fell asleep. I kept the command repeating in my ear the whole time. I think I maybe slept 5 hours.
In the morning, I got up, and went out to the land and buried a copy of the command that I hand-wrote on a piece of 2 x 4. I then repeated the command another 3-400 times.
Pretty much the whole time, I felt depressed, lonely, and sad. But I was determined to energetically plant the command inside my body, inside my cells, underneath my dismay, in the pockets and corners of my muscles, tissues, and energetic layers. I imagined that I was digging holes in my body and planting copies of the affirmation there.
I also envisioned Great Souls with me.
Around 1 or 2 pm, I started to crash.
I sat too long in the hot springs, and almost passed out when I got out of the water. When I got back to my room, my foot seized up in a cramp from dehydration. I then took a 30 minute nap. After that, I kept repeating the affirmation, but the sadness was pretty heavy. At around 4 pm, I decided to get back in the car and drive to eat Thai food. On the way there, and on the way back, I repeated the command.
So from 5-6, I was really wiped out. I finished the 24 hours, and then fell into zombie mode for the rest of the night. I was finished with the hot water. My body couldn’t handle it any more.
On the drive home, I repeated the command several thousand more times, and really felt much better, but still tired.
Flash forward to this morning: I was in court surrounded by chatting attorneys and rustling papers and bailiffs barking out orders to the crowd. I felt like a fish out of water. Totally, like a different person, like my body is being molded into something else, like a cartoon character getting redesigned by the artist. It was hard to feel grounded, yet I found myself laughing for no reason.
So that is my 24 hours. Looking back, I am not sure about repeating it for that long again. I am still recovering. I don’t like being deprived of sleep. Perhaps in a larger group of people, it would be different. I have thought of doing a 24 hour lock in type of retreat, but it may be too much for people. I am not sure. With time my zeal will probably return.
An 8 hour, or a 12 hour repetition would be cool too.
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